When you are on a journey of struggle with a long-standing ailment …you keep feeling you’ll make it this time, in a few more days, it just some more time….and it seems to take forever, I am on one such journey, A Journey of Self Rescue as hard as climbing a mountain, finishing the last round of marathon.
Here, It is a journey of pain and stiffness, a nagging pain that doesn’t want to leave your side, just wants to stick to you like a leech. Starting your morning with stiffness, you can’t move, you can’t hold the teacup, can’t step on the floor, can’t lie down anymore, can’t get busy with anything…Just wait patiently or do some slow movements to warm up the joints…Every day one doesn’t have the motivation to do the routine, some days you want to give up, and someday you want to pop a pill and pretend there’s nothing wrong.
Then, there is one day you learn to live in the moment and accept the reality, that’s how it is gonna be, a little easy someday…very very hard the other day. Rejoice in the easy days, live the hard days without turning bitter as it is the time is less, the good days are few, try to watch something funny or enjoy something warm to drink, bring your awareness to that one moment and enjoy it thoroughly before the nagging pain catches you and beats you up to a pulp.
You are the main protagonist in a high-speed chase sequence, where anything can happen the next moment…. Sometimes you just keep yourself a few inches ahead of the pain, and sometimes you are prey to it and are in its deadly jaws, getting dragged to its den where you will be eaten slowly piece by piece….It seems like a never-ending hate story…. between your body and the pain.
Pain doesn’t want you dead, but doesn’t want to live too…..A spectacular revenge drama happening quietly in your bones and no one has a clue…… ssssshhhh!!, hush hush…Keep it down, keep it quiet!!
How will this end?…. Will you turn up and rescue your body?….. Will you be a silent spectator, like the victim’s relative shedding tears in the corner?…. What must you be?….. What shall you be?…. Will you stand for yourself and be the savior or will you fade away in the darkness like the last bit of light during the sunset?
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